I love Scandal. Even the episodes where you’re like what the fuck is happening? … Him … Her? HOW!?!? You get my point.
Scandal gave me seven wonderful seasons of the tumultuous love affair that is Olivia Pope and Fitzgerald Grand III. Really can’t get enough of their steamy love affair; especially Season Two, episode 14 (Whisky Tango Foxtrot 34:23). More often than not, I will play the episodes continuously for background noise courtesy of Netflix.
I admire the type of woman Olivia Pope is. Olivia Pope does not actually exist (although she’s based on a real-life fixer). Fictitious or not, there are so many women like her that exist in today’s world; women with strong willed characteristics.
Scandal is based on fictional characters who engage in fictional White House Situations (although honestly, not sure how much different the White House actually is in real life)… so the pressure is ALWAYS on!
Olivia is fearless and she is not afraid to fail. I pretend to be fearless, but I am scared shitless. Personally, right now, I am afraid of failure because I believe in some way I have failed. How do I pick up the pieces and move forward? These questions keep me up at night.
Olivia is also kept up all night with racing questions on how to save the world but still shows up to work the next day looking like a rock-star and ready to take on the next crisis. She’s seamless.
I promise this post isn’t self-depreciating and I apologize if I’m coming off negative. I think I need some tough love. I need tough love from me. I believe deep down, somewhere in there, I am great, but close to the surface, it’s all doubt. It’s all doubt even when I pretend like I got this.
I am at a breaking point where I know I need to dive into the deepened; sink or swim. That scares me. It paralyzes me.
Olivia might be scared too when navigating major decisions, but she still pushes forward. I need to push forward too.
I need to find a new job, keep my career moving. I felt like at one point, I was steadfast, just like Olivia. I kept going. Now I am scared. What’s my next move? Should I continue to reside in Chicago or do I seek life elsewhere? These are huge decisions!
When I’m overwhelmed, Scandal allows me to escape. Scandal also reminds me that I can be someone like Oliva; fearless with a little self-determination.
Yoga pose: Twisted Prayer Lunge {Parivrtta Anjaneyasana}: This yoga pose is meant to ignite the center of energy and vitality. It requires focus, which will also help improve balance. For me, this pose is quite difficult, however, it does not stop me from trying. To accomplish this pose with much practice, will make one feel more whole & fulfilled.